I love you, I miss you, you are mine , I’m too hot , you are a pretty boy , I hate me , no body loves me , I want to die , I wish to die , life is hard , حبيبي خاين , sexy girl , love is pain ….. etc
all these MSN nicknames belong to kids ! ” under 13 years old” . That is weird !
I remember my first nick name was ” my name the flower” :p
this picture is a very me ! 
when I’ve chosen science specialty I thought that I will invent , discover something or at least spend time in laps working with real things !
But when I got there my dreams/expectations did not happen! I was in shock cause we had to imagine what we learn. we have to imagine physical actions,creatures, chemical reactions and other - must to see- things.
I thought that I’m going to think my way but I discovered that I have to think like a copying machine!
I thought that I’m going to be a little scientist but I became a broken memory card.
I believe that schools make you stupid. unless you are stupid !
3 months left 
okay, I have a little issues with my cosines. they hate me for no reason . which make hate them back.
I got the courage to ask one of them ” why do you hate me? ”
she looked at me with a sad face and said: don’t you remember ?
I said : what ? refresh my memory plz !
she : one upon a time (2005) 2 girls ” cookie and ***** ” went to the park . cookie played and had fun but the poor ***** who is 2 years younger than cookie could not cause every time she get on the swing or any thing boys start whistling and yelling!
me : you’re a beautiful girl you should be happy !
she : NO ! they’ve done that cause I look older than you ! way older 
me : !??!?!?! 
she : you are little you can play and do any thing, you can go to weddings without beaing asked by women how old are you !
me : did I make my self little ? in fact I hate being little cause people think I am a kid so they don’t respect me. and wedding thing, women ask me to get up and let older people ( who maybe younger) to sit on my place !
she : really ? I’m sorry
me : no problem
ridicules ! I love being little not short just little ,I knew that she wants a little of self confidence cause she really looks older than her age !
can you hate and boycott someone cause of that?
I wonder what the other cosines reasons , I may have bigger nose 
I’ve taken a medicine for three months. Although it made me get better , it made me gain weight. I’m not talking about 1kg or 2. I gained 11 kegs. I didn’t know that tell today I mean yeah I look fatter and my clothes became really tight but I thought that I had 3 or 4 extra kilos.
thanks to the doctor who did not tell me that this medication causes weight gain as a side effect.
I knew about that after I took it for 2 and a half months. (I search about it online)
and I should I’ve taken it with less calories or a diet from the doctors. but in here you get fat without knowing why and the only thing to blame is the poor Machboos
I have to lose those 11 kilos but I don’t know how.
check this out
| Side effects * | Liver disturbances, menstrual disturbances breast discomfort, weight changes headache, dizziness, nausea |
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| I got 3 of 7 symptoms while I’m taking it and I did not know why ! thank god I did not get the other ones ! | ||
| life tip:before taking any kind of medication Google it first! | ||
when you walk around you see houses, houses and more houses and if you looked closely at these house you will see eyes hunting you!
people park their cars everywhere like they own the street.
women have fights almost every two weeks or less OUTSIDE !
boys are always having zeraan and their music is always loud
men gossip! n their gossips are worse the women’s
kids have the best bad language I’ve ever heard !
girls consider this neighborhood better than seef mall
and they won’t read this cause computer/internet is HARAM !
cute ha?
I didn’t use the photoshop since 2006 ! I kind of lost my touch
I tried it tonight and got this
what do you think? I know I need to practice
مأجورين
I’m thrilled and terrified at the same time. I’m scared of that number which may change my life to better or worse !
.. holiday ..
I’m going to take a long hot nice bath to relax from all the stress. then I’m going to put sliced potatoes on my eyes to get rid of the black circles around them.
sleep sleep sleep ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I miss laziness so much 
see ya
4/1/2008 .. a day I will never forget ! I don’t know what should I call that a trap or ! I don’t know !
okay, while I was diving in my fat physics black book, my mobile rang .. strange number .. I gave it to my mum and got back to my room, after few minutes my mum came to my and said: it is your cousin she wants you to go with her to a reception!
me : 1- she hates me. 2- I have an exam. 3- who’s reception. 4- I can’t dress up in 15 minutes !
mum : go, just go you’ll have fun !
me : fun with her! I don’t think so!
mum : go !
me : zen !!!!
after 20 minutes she was here,
then we arrived to that reception I don’t know about ! I looked around and said TAKE ME HOME ! NOW, everyone looks cute and well dressed!
then she said : cookie honey, take your sheela and abaya off !
me: NO !
she: come on no one is wearing them
me: cause no one is wearing jeans!
she : oooooooooooh ,( taking abaya off me)
me : I’ll kill you just wait
then a woman got out from no where and came to me huging and kissing and saying here is the future bride!
me in my heart : future bride! you must be blind, take a good look at me I’m wearing jeans and a T-shirt my hair is kababa (I have an exam look) and the most important thing is I don’t know who the hell are you !!
After that, my cousin and that woman left me alone. I just started walking in a room full of people I don’t know they were smiling to me like they say poor thing! she has no clothes or hair dryer !
my cousin finally showed up and said: wear your shella and abaya.
me: thanx (hit her hard)
she : I won’t hit you back cause that woman will kill me ( pointing at the women who kissed me)
me: what is wrong with her !
she: come and see
she took me to the house’s garden and sat on chairs there !
me: It’s cold are you crazy!
she : no just wait
me : I’m crazy when I came with you!
she : just wait la! I don’t know what he finds on you!
me: he!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! who
she : someone!
me : I’ll kill you really, you made me come with you to see a boy!
she : shhhhhh ! he’s here
a young man was walking twards us
me : he?
she: yes
me : god damn you
she : haha
he : hi .. 
she : hi
me : …hi
he: how are you !
she : fine u?
he : bad! looks like she didn’t like me ( looking at me)
me in my heart : why should I like you?
she: she is just shy
me : …….
he : so, you have exams ha?
me : yes ..
she: do you know that he is in love with you!
me in my heart : in love! I don’t even know his name
me : no
he: I see you with my sister every day
me : sister?
he : yes ****
me : okay
he : so can I have your phone number? e-mail?
me: no
he : okay
he walked away
she: the guy is in love with you for god sake !
me : what kind of love is that !!!!! saw me ! so what !
she : you are harsh ! at least give him your phone number
me : no! you bring me here to this ! take me home
she : he is cute!
me : take him!
she : ahhh , 4 years younger than me
me : take me home
that should be a movie ! I can’t belive it!
this week was nerve braking,
* I can’t sleep cause of the noise, don’t you hate it when you stop using the A/C and start hearing every thing? If you don’t hear anything while you are sleeping you are the lucky and I envy you for that!
what do I hear :
1- cars : I don’t know who is that sick person who runs his car every day at 4 am and make noises with it ( tag7ee9 + 7n7n7n7n) << dosen’t seem like someone who is going to work !
2- my room is in the middle of the house and it’s infront of two bathrooms so, I hear it when some one go to the bathroom and I know what exactly he/she is doing 
!
3- feet : I don’t know what is wrong with my family members feet I can hear them walking next to my room and I know who’s feet is that
4- TV : they/I can’t hear the TV while I am sitting next to it but the sound is very clear in my room
I feel sleepy all the time but I can’t sleep well .. I sleep less than 5 hrs
my eyes , my bones and even my hair hurt me
I think I am losing my mind !
+ exams
GOD HELP
