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Ah , I’m having chickenpox. I know I’m too old to have it now but. ehhh, no one infected me with it when I was a kid, So I had it from my little brother before 2 days.

Anyways, when I knew that I had a week off. I was like “yeah a break from the stupid school .. awesome ” but I was completely wrong. It is an itchy week .. really I have a strong desire to rub and scratch myself against the wall but DAMN I CAN NOT AHHHHH. I can’t sleep well cause of that and when I fall asleep for a minute I have the weirdest dreams ever like ” the longest line of people with chickenpox” WTF ?

I paint my self with the white thing the gave me then wash it cause it hurts ! I sometimes say strange stuff cause of fever.

I went to the sea and GOD that was helpful but when I got home and my clothes dried it was the same old fucking annoying itch !

I’ll try “NEEM “<< a tree (leafs) they say it helps !

a tip for parents : let your kids have chickenpox while they are little kids “under seven yrs ” they can stand it better than the old people like I am ! really my little brother was playing and dancing while he was having it. if you have a kid let me kiss him/her now !

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1- new habit :

lonely morning walk

I didn’t think that walking will help me being energetic, fresh and most important AWAKE. But it did. The air is clean in the morning, you can deeply breath oxygen, the sun is not hellish hot it’s just pretty soft light to see dewdrops on the green leafs of desert. Now It’s my escape from people’s buzz, to clear my mind and prepare to start a new day ..

2- New interests:

a. I love microbiology!
It’s very interesting to see the little guys we live with. I took drops from my parrot’s water and grow the bacteria in a Petri dish. Let’s see what we touch every day!

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the small dots are the bacterial colony ! pretty ha?

After 2 days the fungi will come out . no not ew !

b. I love classic art

Ex: THE NIGHTMARE

Clear, strict, careful… Absolutely beautiful..

New friend:

I used to hate her, I was wrong. She is a really sweet person we just misunderstood each other.

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Man , I can’t believe how stupid some people are !

one simple criticism makes you threatens suicide and other stupid things which gonna destroy you and only you?

If you are stupid enough to do it, do it ! I don’t care and I hope you burn in hell !

I’m MAD

BOYS ARE CRAZY !!!!!

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I am the middle child , I felt left out when I was a kid. I felt that I have to be independent and never ask for help cause no one will ever help me cause my older brother has always stole the lights.

I felt in the beginning of teen aging that my parents hate me and I was just a mistake.

now (to my parents), I am the responsible person who close the doors before bed and keep the important stuff with! the one who can NEVER be mistaken so if I did a small silly mistake it is unforgivable and hunts me till I die. even my father said once you are smart you can’t be mistaken!

so, the older one can live his life although he have to learn how to be responsible.

and the elder one with a big age gab between me and him is the KID and I think he will be treated as the KID forever cause when I was his age I used to sleep alone but he doesn’t !

being a mid child is unfair !

I’m happy with my self now .. but my parents are mad cause they want my brother to be a bit like me ! .. refresh your memory..

mid children are always ” different” in a way ( good or bad )

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